Write me whenever

Write me whenever

November 1, 1992
Dear Ari - 
I got your beautiful and very touching letter on Friday. You really do express yourself amazingly well and you are wise and aware well beyond your years. A lot of much older people than you don't understand feelings as well as you do. 

Firstly - I want you to know that you can call or write me whenever you want and you can tell me anything and it will stay between us. 

Secondly - about your parents fighting and how it makes you feel - I think it would be a really good idea if you could tell your parents - or at least your mom - how you feel. Tell her how it hurts you and scares you and ask her questions and try to discuss. I know she will feel bad that you are hurt but that's ok because it's only when we are open and honest with each other that we can get to solving problems and understanding each other. 

Also, no matter what problems your parents have it is really important to know that it has nothing to do with you and you are not causing the fighting. And you and Gabriel are so important to them both and they love you more than anything. 

You are an extremely special girl and you bring sunshine and great pleasure into everyone's lives. You really are bright and sensitive and gunny and delicious and very perceptive. (That means that you understand things that aren't always so obvious. You figure things out). You are also so so so so kissable!!

About boys - what a big subject! We'll be talking about this for years to come. Boys are a big subject in a girl's life. So now it's beginning for you - or at least you would like it to being. It feels bad sometimes when boys don't pay attention to you. All I know is - they will. I used to tell Jacquie that when she was upset that no boys ever paid attention to her. She got impatient waiting and didn't believe me for a long while. But eventually things changed, time passed and boys started paying attention and calling her. I know it will happen with you too because you're beautiful and bright and have a great personality. So hang in there and don't think too much about the girls that are popular with the boys now. Sometimes the cutest and most popular girls in high school are not special after college. 

About Jacquie - while you were in The Gap with your Mom last Sunday Jacquie and I were sitting in the mall waiting for you and we talked and kissed and hugged. I feel a lot calmer now about her trip than I did last week. It's been hard for me to accept that she would drive across the country by herself and be alone so much. It scares me. But Jacquie is an adult - 23 in a few weeks - and a good and responsible person and good driver too. And so, I had to calm down and accept her decision. Was I right?

By the way, no matter how old we are, we go through periods of confusion or scariness or just not understanding our feelings and it makes us act not quite like we usually do. I had very mixed up feeling about Jacquie going and it caused me to cry a lot and to say or act in some ways with Jacquie that I shouldn't have. Everybody goes through things like that. 

O.K. Pushkie - I must go now.
I love 
You Love
We love each other
That is love

I luff you
I lerve you
I loave you - (Woody Allen)

Write again - 
Lillian
P.S. Ask Liza about boys. She has lots to tell you. 

Background: I wrote a letter to my aunt when I was 11 years old. I don't remember what I said, but this was her very special reply. Just as relevant in my 30's as it was when I was 11. I wish every kid received letters like this one. 

Neil Young you are my hero

Neil Young you are my hero

You mean so much to me
You used to date my auntie
You’re part of my history

And if you had not let her go
Who knows who knows how the story’d go
Who knows who knows if id be here today
Neil Young you give me goosebumps
And you’re older than my dad

And when you were my age Neil
So good, and yet so bad
Your words and tunes all ring so true
Where would we be neil without you?

Ruth tell me tales of how it used to be
Neil young you rock my soul out
You make me sing and dance
And play guitar or drums Neil

True beauty at a glance
Rock on neil, don’t stop.
The new you isn’t old
The raw emotion to sentimentality

A transition to be told
Sweet home Manitoba
Don’t need nothing new up here
Neil young you are a legend
Meet me for wine and beer

The Best Mom for Me

My mom is the best
On Mothers Day you are even better
Mom you're great
She's really cool for being my Mom

Does great stuff for me
An all around kind of Mom
You're the best Mom for me

Background: Submitted by Zaynab Fitzpatrick -- from her son, Nathan Briggs

Discover Me

Discover Me

Azizam, 

I know you are yet to discover your feelings, but mine are not secret to you

We are yet to learn each other's passions, but your eyes told me of your big heart

Yes, you are a disaster - late for our dates and your apartment is, well, a mess

But no one is perfect, including me - have luggage enough for two lives

What matters the most is your inner self: 

A humble person, a true friend, an addicted environmentalist, a woman with gorgeous eyes and a well of pure love in your heart

I choose you and believe in us - please accept and discover me

M.

Like a Mofo

Like a Mofo

Joules J writing to Sahar G-B

you ARE old and lame-how can you think jokes about smegma are gross? would you prefer "my mother in law is so two-faced , when she cries her back gets wet"?

i miss you like a mofo. ughrghghghhhh. lets get matching tattoos. of like..... whats our favourite thing. wine? wine smoothie? bruce? safety firth? no! christopher plummer. anyway. ive been reading this tattoo website and all these bestfriends get matching tattoos and im all like aawwwwwwwww :) so lets do it when i come. it can be like right next to our anuses or something if you dont want anyone to see it. 

Also.... Our flat is so rad. Ugh. And its started raining which I fear is like god breaking the seal. Like summer was the drunken happy high and now hes started peeing and will never ever stop, onlyy for a moment to turn around and vomit snow. Then shit will be chill and peaceful as he passes out. Man that is the best metaphor ive ever coome up with. 

Had a dream about you all last night. i dream about you every night. Every time I do im saying goodbye to y'all its wearying. Maybe in like 2-3 weeks we'll have internet. and we can skype endlessly

please don't forget about me-i know its easy since I live not in the same country as you and am probably really needy. i should start slipping great facts about myself into updates. i was the one who discovered dna.

so if you remember me by my updates only you will remember a magnificent person

by the way i have an iq of 164 and my penis is between 9 and 10 inches at last measure

Look for Isaac

Look for Isaac

i noticed yesterday or realized that you didnt bite your nails the whole time i saw you.
just an observation that struck me. not the the most important thing to acknowledge but something none the less.
hope you are enjoying the cruise. look for isaac washington when cruising the boat.
maybe you dont remember him. heres a foto.
used for comic relief in many recent ads and tv shows.
heres a picture.
bye nerd.

me

ps. today i cant stop thinking of you

3 Kinds

3 Kinds

i have 3 kinds of friends,
easy
annoying
and fucking insane..
you are easy

Turning Thirteen

Turning Thirteen 

Dear Lucas,

Pa and I are having a hard time believing that you, are first grandchild, are turning thirteen. Your birth was one of the most thrilling moments of our lives and you have given us pleasure from day one.

It has been wonderful watching you grow up and evolve into this cool, handsome, interesting and interested guy, someone who is always thoughtful and sweet to others. You are the ultimate athlete, a curious and successful student and a supportive older brother who is also a first class tease. Best of all, you are an affectionate and loving person. 

And did I say that you are VERY funny??

And let me reiterate…

Lucas, your Bar Mitzvah marks a special moment in your life - it’s a turning point and we wish you good luck as you go forward. We have confidence that you will continue to develop all your wonderful talents and still find new areas of curiosity to explore. The vistas are endless. Go for it!

Good luck on Saturday. We love you and take great pride in the person you are.

We can’t wait to celebrate with you.

Love Always,
Nana and Pa

Next…Venice!

Your Gift

Your Gift
by Cassie McDaniel

You pinned me down and gave me something

I didn't know I needed –

Short glances, respectful naked distance

laughter after the gun smoke and sounds

glorious sounds: like television

I move past the despise and learn more

about loving life than I had ever loved in practice.

So you gave me sound and told me to sit still

While I filled every available cavity with dark

rich soil. Planted seeds and waited. “Grow grow grow”

we together chanted. You played the ukulele

in gentle insistence. Something

crept upward, the solid nut, the noun, the core,

and lodged forever in the hollow of my hands.

I don't have large claws

I don't have large claws

-----Original Message-----
From: MY <XXX>
To: XXX
Sent: Mon, Jan 16, 2006 6:55 am
Subject: Re: adoration

Dear karuna bai,I'm very much touched by your sharing...I feel that you are one of my very special friends. I very much treasure this firendship and woild like it to grow. I enjoy your companyand your wonderful energy and spirit that you bring into any situation. I also see that you are a kindred spirit with many special talents, especially your ability to love and share love - one of the mostimportant for the World. I pray that your move to Spirit Fire is easy and joyful, and that it will be the beginning of a new stage in unraveling your life's purpose.Hope to see you after i come back in March!Light of friendship,
XXX.

-----Original Message-----

>From: XXX
>Sent: Jan 10, 2006 7:44 PM
>To: XXX
>Subject: adoration

>are you checking your email? i would bet that you are. how was your trip? seems like you should be growing accustomed to that particular journey?

>yesterday, i was confiding in a friend about my 'crush' on you. my friend says, XXX could have any woman that he wants. he has that charm. why do you think that he has feelings for you?'

>well, i'd like to know what your feelings are. 
>i don't have large claws that dig into the flesh of men that i'm interested in. i've found that the exchange of love is an extremely important part of my life. this exchange doesn't have to have old fashioned boundaries or well defined borders. i live to love. to be the recipient of my adoration (i believe) can be 
lovely.

>for example...C and i have a wonderfully loving relationship. we share confidences and intimacies that are special. he is 'in love' with anna and i don't think that either of us feels a conflict about that. we don't kiss or make love but snuggle up, cry together and genuinely love one another up to the point of physical intimacy. 

>with you...i feel differently. perhaps it's because i don't know of any 'attachment' that you have with a partner so i look at you as a potential lover. you've given me no indication that you're interested in me in a physical way. that's okay. i would like to know, however, in what way you ARE interested (if at all.)

>whatever your response, it won't change my love for you. we are friends. 

>i am not a game playin kinda person. open and honest communication makes sense to me. it's in the spirit of truth and honesty that i'm writing to you.  i want you to know that i think about you in a completely amorous way....your response will help me keep my feelings based in reality and not in some unfounded expectation.
>i would love to know what your life in russia is like?
>i'm packing my things now and getting prepared to move next week. i'm used to being on the move. i like a life that keeps me fresh and growing. staying comfortable has, thus far, not been condusive to my spiritual growth. i find that i'm less fearful than ever about big change. my faith has grown.
>
>dear Friend, i hope that i'm overwhelming you. i hope that you will write back to me with an open heart. i don't expect anything more or less. you are a lovely man and i wish you goodness around every turn.

>in peace,
>karuna bai